moving this blog?

kind of...

i'll be posting this type of content elsewhere though

this is a weird one

this blog isn't really private

obviously

anyone can come by

but sometimes i wonder if it's you

if you're here instead of there

if that was you last night

if i could ever know

maybe

maybe is all i have

out of my mind a bit

miss my human boy a lot

sending him a care package tho

hope he likes it

:)

semester done

and now i breathe.
this is the bodyshop icon guy. reminds me of the one emoji

i broke it

okay not exactly... but the sims 2 is acting up (surprise, surprise) xP

have a screenshot of beau dustin broke doing his homework because that's all i've got

long time no see

sigh. i wish i came with better news. unfortunately, it's been 25 days since i last spoke to a person that means a lot to me, and i have yet to hear his side of the story directly from him. i have been finishing up my fall semester and currently have one more assignment to finish, but i miss this boy. it's hard not knowing. not understanding. i understand this: he's overwhelmed. i'm... a lot. i also understand this: we are permanently interwoven in each other's lives. there is no getting rid of each other. what we can do, however, is come up with a better way to interact that protects both of us and our neurodivergent brains. i never intended to develop an anxious-avoidant pattern with him: i only wanted to talk, laugh, and flirt back when he did. but, i am autistic. i am not always sure. i am not trying to make life harder for anyone. i wish he would have told me. i wish we could sit down and talk about what went wrong. to prevent it from happening again. to keep the good parts and send the frustrations into the past. because if i have learned anything from this life, it's that "i know that we haven't always known each other very well but i remember when we did it was always better".

i know that we haven't always known each other very well but i remember when we did it was always better

so, jonah, if you're reading this, i'm sorry again. i miss talking to you. i hope we're okay. i hope your holiday is warm. i hope your heart is full. i hope your brain is kind. i hope we can move forward.

always,
your crow. 

what i'm thinking about: september '25

A little note here: Most of this was transcribed from me just blabbing lol

I haven’t written on my blog in a while, but I have a few things to say—especially in light of Governor Kathy Hochul’s endorsement of Zohran K. Mamdani yesterday. I’ve been thinking about where New York fits in the national moment, and how we talk about politics, violence, faith, and each other.

Hochul & Mamdani

I’ll own this: I think I was wrong about Mamdani—and I suspect many Jewish New Yorkers were, too. Based on what I'd heard from relatives, many of whom had lived in NYC under Bloomberg, I expected a politician who would proclaim a view and refuse to engage across differences. That hasn’t been the case. He has met with Jewish leaders, listened, and addressed concerns directly. His policy positions may not align with what many Jews (including those in my own family) consider the “right” answers, but the way he’s approaching a relationship with his would-be constituents feels appropriate: communicate clearly, leave space for disagreement, and keep the conversation going. With a city as Jewish as New York, that matters.

More broadly, there’s a widening disconnect between Democratic politics in cities like New York and Los Angeles and the rest of the country. That worries me. A national party has to function nationally, not as separate universes. Lately, it can feel like liberalism and small-d democracy are rubbing against each other in uncomfortable ways—less compatible than they once felt.

On the killing of Charlie Kirk

“I think it’s worth to have a cost of, unfortunately, some gun deaths every single year so that we can have the Second Amendment to protect our other God-given rights.”
—Charlie Kirk, TPUSA Faith event (Apr. 5, 2023). Newsweek

Whether one calls it an assassination or a killing, political violence is wrong. Full stop. The tragic irony is that Kirk had often argued publicly about guns and the price society pays; no one’s life should be the “price” of anything. If anything, this underscores how desperately we need better education and media literacy—on guns, abortion and health, religious history, and the civic basics we’re all supposed to share.

Faith, history, and how we’re taught

As a Reform Jew, I was raised to know the history of my tradition and to question it. I wish more religious education across denominations foregrounded history the way many Reform congregations try to. Too often, “real Christian/real Jew/real X” policing gets weaponized; it’s unhelpful and usually ahistorical. (If you’re curious, Reform’s “Learning” hub is a good example of that approach.) 

Gender, biology, and law

Saying “there are only two genders” erases the complexity we actually observe—in people and in nature. Intersex variations are real and recognized in contemporary health policy discussions, including calls for informed consent standards. (Human Rights Watch)
And in nature, some fish literally change sex as part of their life history—biology is wild and wonderfully non-binary. (evolution.berkeley.edu)

Whatever one’s theology or politics, reducing human experience to a rigid binary and then writing that into law harms real people. It’s also bad science.

Accountability in leadership

Presidents owe the public basic transparency—especially with the press. Shutting down questions, obscuring information that isn’t legitimately classified, and governing by grievance erode trust. We do need clearer, behavior-based requirements for holding the presidency, grounded in professional evaluation and ethics (impulse control, honesty, conflicts of interest, and empathy) rather than armchair diagnoses. Scholars have also argued that Donald Trump’s approach represents an unusually extreme form of presidential narcissism; agree or disagree, that debate underscores why clear standards matter. (LSE Blogs)

This is a lot. The moment is complicated. But here’s where I land: listen more, label less, reject political violence, teach our histories honestly, and insist on accountable leadership. That’s my two cents.